Wednesday, April 27, 2005

You are a monster. One terrifying monster. How can you be so cruel? How can you steal so much? How can you take away something so dear? As if the taking was a given, you needed to do it step by step, in agonizing slowness and painstaking technique. As if, the taking away was just part of the fun for you, as if watching lives adjust to the loss of each cherished gift was the sequel to each episode of act of brutality, all components of the same master plan. Watching them adjust to this new low and then striking again. So they broke down again, each time a little-less-sure, a little more scared. But still they bent down and picked up the pieces. They formed a new picture with the shattered fragments. They still maintained that it was their picture. And it was. A gnawingly sad version of the same picture. But one that shone with resilience, hope, faith and at the same time, despair. Till the blows came down harder and more often, till there was very little time between mourning losses and bracing for the attacks. Till the picture was no longer recognizable. It was like a movie had ended, not because the scripted ending had been reached but because the actors had grown weary. Of your attacks. Because you are relentless. Because you are so evil, it makes you alive. And we are still picking up the pieces.

24 Comments:

Blogger phatichar said...

Oh boy, what a contrast to your previous post...whatever it was, I hope you get the strength to get through it...you take care now.

8:13 PM  
Blogger AmitL said...

Life's like that,Gabby,is all I can say.The good with the bad,the happy with the sad..

8:14 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Gabby, that's some dark mood. Hope you feel better soon.

-Peggy

8:44 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

I am not sure what provoked this post....but I do hope everything is alright. Keep the faith.

Ashwin

8:49 PM  
Blogger Sudipta Chatterjee said...

Just one of those desperate days when the entire pent-up frustration relieves itself against the unjust world, eh?

9:27 PM  
Blogger Patrix said...

Hmmmm..kya hua? ekdum mood change at 4:34pm, right after the Kili.leg-pulling...personally liya kya? yaar, maaf karo.

9:38 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Hauntingly sad. Take care.

passer-by

9:42 PM  
Blogger sanguine said...

take care babe ..
{{{hugs}}}

9:55 PM  
Anonymous Zoheb said...

Hope everything is all right.

11:46 PM  
Anonymous Sqrl/NT said...

I hope you are okay.. you sound very distrubed in this post

5:41 AM  
Blogger anantha said...

hmmm....

7:23 AM  
Blogger GratisGab said...

People..dark mood has passed. Thanks's for the words/hugs/sounds...It's all in the past but you know how it can catch up to you at the most unexpected time...putting it down was surprisingly healing.

Patrix, takes a little more than kili-pulling to get me this low honey...for the record, for dealing with that kinda anger I will leave a comment in your comment box reading 'Patrix, is a monster'

7:39 AM  
Blogger Peg said...

Excellent Post!! Excellent visualization!! Excellent emotion!! Excellent, most excellent read!! You are an excellent writer and I a grateful reader!!

2 thumbs up, hats off and waiting for more to come!!

7:46 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

who is 'you', 'we', 'they'? all confused!!

8:17 AM  
Anonymous Patrix said...

I should have guessed :) But glad that dark mood has passed...in typical bambaiya ishtyle, kissi 'monster' ki supari deni hai toh bolo, apun tumko first-timer discount dega

8:31 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

I'm a fan. I hope you make your peace, my dear. (first time commenting)

8:58 AM  
Blogger GratisGab said...

Peg - *I* am honoured. Wow, please, wow. Thank you, thank you, thank you.

Patrix - I'm cool, thanks, much.

Anon - I sincerely hope so too. Thank you.

1:54 PM  
Anonymous Ash said...

Gabbie, beautiful beautiful post.
Warm cuddly hugs for the pain,
and a quick tickle in the tummy to make you laugh :)

7:44 PM  
Blogger GratisGab said...

Ash - thanks so much sweetie. glad to have you back, exams over?

9:48 PM  
Blogger Twilight Fairy said...

that was a poignant one.. I guess the 'you' is life or mebbe fate.. well it's the same with everyone isnt it? Hope you get the strength to make it through this..with ur spirit intact..

12:53 AM  
Blogger GratisGab said...

I'm okay T.Fairy, thanks girl.

10:34 AM  
Blogger tilotamma said...

Sorry, were you talking about yourself?

10:20 AM  
Blogger GratisGab said...

I'm not the monster if that's what you mean. The 'we' certainly includes me though.

Thanks for visiting...

11:47 AM  
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